I was average as a younger person, not skinny skinny but not overweight. My weight gain started between the age of 16 and 17 when I was pregnant with my first child. To explain in a short roundabout way, I had a baby boy but I gave him up for adoption. I chose a better life for him because I was not ready to be a mom. That being said, this is not about that but about me and my life now.
So before getting pregnant my weight was 128 pounds and I am 5 foot 3 inches. By the time I gave birth I was 200 pounds. Between the ages of 17 and 20 I fluctuated between 180 and 200 pounds. Then I got pregnant with my daughter Savannah. By the time I gave birth to her in July of 2006 I was 21 years old and up to 241 pounds. I managed to initially lose some of that weight and went back down to 208 pounds. But in no time the weight climbed back up. By the time I got married in September of 2007 I was 250 pounds. Over the years I tried to lose weight, dieting and exercise but usually it was a crash course diet that failed because it didn't last and I went right back to my old eating habits. In June of 2009 I found out I was pregnant with my second daughter, at my first appointment I weighed in at 262 pounds and by the time I had her I was 274 pounds. I didn't lose so much after having her and it wasn't long before I was pregnant again. A year to be exact is when we found out we were expecting our son. My first doctors appointment for him, I weighed 272 pounds. Just two pounds under what I was at a full term pregnancy with my daughter. I was beyond discouraged because I knew I was bound to gain at least 20 to 30 pounds if not more. I was fairly careful during my last pregnancy because I was scared of hitting 300 pounds. Just the number 300 sounds enormous, and that is how I felt. So my all time high record weight was on September 19th, 2011 the day my son was born. 297 pounds, and I sure looked it too!!! Since having him four months ago I was able to get down about 25 pounds. When I started this 13 days ago I was 272.4 pounds.
I am done being fat!!! I am done because it makes me depressed and unhappy, I have horribly low self esteem because I feel disgusting! I am done because I am ashamed of myself for gaining so much weight and staying that way for so long! I am done because I want to run and play with my kids. I am done because I want to be sexy for my husband! I am done because I want to be healthy and live a long happy healthy life! I AM DONE because FAT is not going to dictate my life and who I am!
My first goal I set for myself was to be down to 259 pounds at my two week mark. That is in 2 days and I am now right between 264 and 265. I know I can do this! I have been working out and eating a healthy low calorie diet! I have messed up probably a handful of times but I am going strong and I refuse to quit!
I need all the support I can get so feel free to leave me comments about your thoughts and, well, anything you want to say!
I am going to post a few pictures of me at my highest weight and I will continue to post pictures as my weight goes down and I hit my goals!!!
My next blog will record my notes and daily meals and such for the last 13 days as well as the goals I have set for myself!
<3 you got this! And remember Failure is not an option! :) <3 ya
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